Today i went for my practical exam. my improvision should not fail, but will not score well as expected.what i play is so different with wat i think and plan.....Hearing not as good as i tot because i did a little testing here and there.....and hav many mistakes........then for my playing, first song was good but a bit too loud.2nd one was quite boring i think.me myself cant find the mood when playing the song too.but most importantly i made many mistakes! This is the worse part that made me so disappointed. Throughout the whole exam was quite fast but in between we drag a lot of time due to the usb device's fault.The connection was so loose that we took a lot of time to settle it.i even worried it will cut off when i was playing halfway.Somehow i find one of the examiners' face so familiar.i think she has examine me before 2 years ago and this is so amazing that i can remember her face! And another stupid thing i did before the exam.Before i went into the room i still listen to barney song to calm myself.weird right? BARNEY leh. i like children songs.Ziyi say i childish because i listen to this kind of songs and also like cartoons.Why? who say big girl cannot like cartoon?i young and cute okay?! Erm enough of cartoons.back to the topic.But this calming effect of listening song is only short term.While i was playing the improvision section, i feel my legs trembling.only during i play my first song i enjoy the most.
Overall my standard is around the middle range......

Just now i on my com and saw a blog's URL left by yingxiu and i went to open it.shock to see mr chiang's message there. While reading i could feel his tears,pain, and agony. losing his 2 students must be heart piercing. Now then i know he guided David since david was sec one, and on the other hand known RX for 1o years. Not just a normal relationship between conductor and member of CO.Today mr mike was still not in the mood to rehearse with mayflower. i shall not say as i am not sure too,but u can try to imagine. Upon reading the message, i thought of the past few months when i was dieing to quit EVCO. Then i realise i will be so heartless to leave EVCO at this very important moment. i knew very well an orchestra cannot work without members cooperating with each other. yet i have this kind of thinking. i need to find back the joys i have in CO because i still have the passion in CO