Yesterday i went to celebrate melody's birthday at Kgarden. I strongly feel thet this is certainly the happiest day of the whole week. After being a few days of a quiet person who hardly speak any words, i finally had the chance to talk. Now i know how does it feel to become a mute.Vent my fustrations, shout till i'm content. Going kbox or Kgarden is definitely the right place for me to release my emotions. Especially for me who have not spoken anything in school, its best to choose super high pitch or powerful rock songs. Such songs are especially made to tear my throat. super enjoyable. Wow, cool. I hope others enjoy too,especially the birthday girl! we went for dinner after that and more people came to join us.

Today we had lectures. Oh my god the english lecture is the most terrible one. We are told to write an essays of more than 400 words within 45 minutes. somemore it's argumentative essay! i have never ever written any argumentative essay before! dont even know how to start, Or if there's any format. Guess what, i only manage to write about two hundred words, and i find myself writing to the end soon! So even if i have enough time to finish everything,my essay will only be 300 words at most?!?!My mind is so blank,couldn't thought of things to write at all. I turned to my left and front. Everyone is writing so much in each paragraph! only me, the worst, 200words. I really need to admit my english is really very very bad. Maths too. Even though i can understand whatever the lecturer taught today, i'm still very slow in my work. While i was still calculating the answer for the first question, he already reviewed the answer for the question and was going to the next one. I need to revise my A and Emaths. Its terrible. I cant imagine what happen to the very minority who didnt learn Amaths. It must be hell. But seems like every students in the lecture theatre learned o level Amaths. Bio lecture was good. Interesting, no stress yet. The competiveness level there is also very high. Found many many people from so many different schools. And i heard, only the first 80 top students on estimation are able to get scholarship according to percentage. My hope is a little shattered. My confidence level seems to be falling. I heard some JC already started studying, so fast! its really very.........hard to adapt.
Am i really suitable to go to a JC?